tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3092874956801030845.post416626286137196601..comments2011-04-15T13:00:25.011-07:00Comments on Smiling through tears: When you're near the top... there's a long way to fallL.http://www.blogger.com/profile/16203523458111360276noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3092874956801030845.post-18542692309327207022011-02-08T12:59:59.740-08:002011-02-08T12:59:59.740-08:00I know exactly what you mean about being at that p...I know exactly what you mean about being at that point in recovery where it seems like you're gonna slip off to one side or the other. It's like, where do I go from here? Ya know?<br />I am there right now, too.<br />Part of me also wishes I could just go back to ED. That I didn't know how horrible it is for me: physically, mentally, emotionally.<br />But I DO know. And I AM happier without it.<br />We have to go through this uncomfortable stage, though, in order to reach a normal state of being, one where we're happy WITHOUT counting calories or freaking out over measuring things. I can't wait to get there.<br />I hope that this week goes well for you!<br />You are doing so great; just keep talking back to that chatterbox!<br /><3 HaleyHaleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17728102924183771887noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3092874956801030845.post-19822397073389998562011-02-07T18:48:57.472-08:002011-02-07T18:48:57.472-08:00Beautiful post, L! This is so, so true for all of ...Beautiful post, L! This is so, so true for all of us in recovery. I admire your strength and determination for pulling yourself together and getting back on track. You deserve a lot of credit - it isn't easy to do.<br /><br />You are so strong. Keep fighting. (And winning!)<br /><br />Hugs!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02465017243367902399noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3092874956801030845.post-68446017753921023552011-02-07T15:56:47.120-08:002011-02-07T15:56:47.120-08:00Hello again! I commented on your "Your Do It&...Hello again! I commented on your "Your Do It" post, introducing myself as a longtime reader who just started her own blog. I can totally relate to fear about unmeasured amounts of food, especially at breakfast. First of all, it's amazing that you can switch up your breakfast routine at all without anxiety! While my breakfast of oatmeal with assorted fruits and nuts thrown in is my most substantial meal (and quite healthy, at all) meal of the day, I have not yet been able to switch to anything else. I feel as if nothing else will be as fulfilling (mentally) and filling (physically). <br /><br />I don't use measuring cups for most things, but for my oatmeal I always make sure to measure out half a portion. I try to throw in an extra spoonfuls, but I can't seem to keep myself from spooning some of the oatmeal back into the container. :-/ So go you for re-filling your cereal bowl without measuring!!! As long as you you're not feeling stuffed and like you've overeaten, then you know you've eaten the right amount for your body :)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3092874956801030845.post-74915421877619773692011-02-07T15:03:42.543-08:002011-02-07T15:03:42.543-08:00Even though it was a struggle, you did the right t...Even though it was a struggle, you did the right things and you should be so proud of yourself.<br />We're all here for you. You're right - this is an amazing community of support!<br /><3princesslilahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11722940285808602890noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3092874956801030845.post-78644276017644153342011-02-07T14:11:45.414-08:002011-02-07T14:11:45.414-08:00Like you say, the trouble with getting so far into...Like you say, the trouble with getting so far into recovery is that you are so used to feeling positive and upbeat that when you get a day where you feel awful and the "chatterbox" is loud, it feels even worse because you are not used to it! [Don't worry you can use the term "chatterbox" ;)]<br /><br />It sounds like you did the right thing on a day like this. Often times, I have to get out of the house just so that I can be around different people and different views. <br /><br />Even though these kinds of days are awful, we learn from them and we come out the other side so much stronger than we thought we could ever be. <br /><br />I had a week like this last week. It was difficult but I powered on through because I knew that it could only get better. And it did :)<br /><br />So proud of you for holding on!<br /><br />xxxKatyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07411713258719842831noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3092874956801030845.post-14074612971580321882011-02-07T12:36:30.402-08:002011-02-07T12:36:30.402-08:00You are absolutely right!!! We all have to fight o...You are absolutely right!!! We all have to fight our battles, the good thing is that we are not alone! :) love you! xxxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3092874956801030845.post-59473323607873551922011-02-07T11:03:13.400-08:002011-02-07T11:03:13.400-08:00ED might have told you that you could have lived o...ED might have told you that you could have lived off of much less, but that is not true. For the time being, you could have SURVIVED off of less, but who wants to spend there life merely surviving, merely existing? You want to live, and no, you couldn't have LIVED off of less. Eating less would have meant restricting and falling back into old habits to please ED. That is not living. That is going through the motions of life without actually experiencing it. It must be awful to have such a sensitive stomach. I know it makes eating even more difficult physically, but I'll bet ED uses it as en excuse to restrict. <br /><br />You didn't let him make that decision for you though, and you ate your lunch. I know what a struggle it is to force the food down without enjoying it, but do you know what? You ate the damn food and got on with your day! That's so positive, and it just goes to show how strong you really are. <br /><br />I'm sorry today was so rough for you. The 5 course meal catered by ED is enough to leave anyone mentally STUFFED. But you are right: tomorrow is a new day. Nothing lasts forever; this too shall pass.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com